al-Qadr

Sedar tak sedar, Ramdhan semakin menginjak meninggalkan dan kita juga telah memasuki 10 malam terakhir, yakni malam Lailatul Qadar. sekejup betul masa berlalu tanpa kita sedari...

" masih saja aku terbuai
Badan terkulai, jiwa terabai
aku tahu, bukan Kau yang jauh..
tapi,
aku yang tidak acuh
aku dekati Kau hanya tika aku butuh
kini,
serasa sesak nafasku,
tandus...
namun ku masih kaku
tak jua ku reguk cawan cinta-Mu
dulu,
malam yg Kau anugerahkan
kulalui dengan percuma..
23 tahun..
jarang aku bersujud
pada dinihari seribu bulan
mungkin nurani tak sanggup menyangganya,
betapa takabburnya dan alpa,
ketika aku minta di mi'rajkan...
padahal jiwaku tak lebih daripada Firaun.
namun sungguh,
ingin aku temui Engkau,
sebelum ajal menjengah di muka pintu.. "

::uena::

::surah al-Qadr::

p/s: Marilah kita sama-sama meningkatkan amal jariah. Sesungguhnya bulan Ramadhan adalah bulan pilihan Allah swt untuk membuka dan memberi peluang kepada hambanya bermuahasabah diri dan melakukan ibadat semaksimum mungkin. Jadi terpulanglah kepada kita untuk memanfaatkan peluang ini sepenuhnya. Janganlah kita tergolong dalam golongan orang2 yang rugi di dunia dan akhirat.

fMRI

Functional Magnetic Resonance Imaging is a type of MRI that allows you to see which parts of your brain are active when you perform different tasks or feel certain emotions or sensations. brain again?? btw, you can blame tsukumo. an IPS's (Institute Police Science) neuroscientist which is cast by Takuya Kimura in Mr. Brain (read: jdo). it influence me to keep read about brain, do a lil bit research about brain and posting 'the brain' entries.

i'dhe found several articles regarding fMRI test. basically, brain activity requires energy and a good supply of oxygen-rich blood. The scanner can see the increase in blood flow to the most active parts of the brain because it can detect the difference between hydrogen nuclei in oxygenated blood and those in de-oxygenated blood. In this way the scanner builds-up a 3D map of which parts of the brain are working particularly hard.

fMRI mapping of the brain is used to find out how the brain carries out mental tasks and what parts of the brain are responsible for different brain disorders. you can use MRI scans to see what parts of the brain are active when your subject is doing various different things. Here are examples showing five different stimuli.

PainThe scan shows the regions of the brain that became more active when the subject's hand was heated to a painful level. Pain involves both sensation and emotion so different types of pain result in different areas of the brain being active.

Using fMRI scientists can start to understand how pain works, and how it might be possible to reduce painful experiences.

(MRI scan image highlighting the areas of the brain involved in feeling pain)

LoveIn one fMRI study the brains of people who were in love were scanned while they looked at photographs, some of their friends and some of their loved-ones. When they saw a picture of their loved one specific areas of the brain became active, suggesting that there is a specialised system in the brain relating to romantic love.

(MRI scan images highlighting the areas of the brain involved in feeling love)

JoyYour scan shows the regions of your subject's brain that become more active when he watches his football team score a goal.

Although some of these areas are related to the feeling of joy, some may be a result of different influences, such as the anticipation of a goal being scored. Deciding what the subject should do or see to isolate an emotion is perhaps the hardest part of fMRI studies.

(MRI scan image highlighting the areas of the brain involved when feeling joyful)

SmellThe scan shows the brain areas that are activated by smell. Smell is a complex sense and several different parts of the brain are needed to work out what a smell is, where it's coming from and whether you like it or not.

(MRI scan image highlighting the areas of the brain involved when feeling joyful)

FearThe scans show that when your subject is frightened, a brain structure called the amygdala becomes more active.

The amygdala is responsible for generating a range of negative emotions such as sadness, anger and disgust. It becomes less active when people perform non-emotional tasks, which is why keeping yourself busy when you're sad can make you feel better.

(MRI scan images highlighting the areas of the brain involved when feeling afraid)

Human's brain

A little reminder for us.. ^^

" well, human..
things that happened or things from a long time ago.. they tend to forget them, don't they?
same like a person u fell in love with..
you forget their face or name, what you talked about, what fun you had together...
But,
if you actually happen to run into that person again,
you just sort of light up, you smile..
you remember the feeling of loving that person.
that happens because,
besides the brain's hippocampus and cerebral cortex there are lots of hidden pockets where memories pool.
the memories of being love by someone, the memories of loving someone, the purest emotions are buried in the deepest part of the brain, the limbic cortex..
they are locked there.
so that they will never ever be forgotten "

Tsukuma, IPS's neuroscientist- Mr. Brain

Glossaries:

• Hippocampus: a major component of the brains of humans and other mammals. It belongs to the limbic system and plays important roles in long-term memory and spatial navigation.

• The limbic system (or Paleomammalian brain) is a set of brain structures including the hippocampus, amygdala, anterior thalamic nuclei, and limbic cortex, which support a variety of functions including emotion, behavior, long-term memory, and olfaction

A letter to 16 years old chubby plus gemokkk girl ^^

hye uena,

ops, sorry for calling u chubby + gemokkk!! eventho u xgemuk pon lg skan. tapi, dun worry. juz wait for a few months, when u got an offer from mrsm. hahaha!! *evil laugh* yeah.. i noe, rite now u tgah b'sedey kan? always thinking bout boarding school and how badly u want to go there. i noe, u're passed ur PMR with flying color and u r d best student in this current school. and everyone hope too much on you. but till now u stil didn't get d offer!! dun worry dear..~ the time will come. juz wait a lil bit. saba ekk :) perhaps early of june u akan dpt dat dat offer letter. ops! t'bagitau pulak.. ok2, nnt da dpt dat letter pure2 xtau ekk. juz wait n see.. dat offer will change ur life afterall, since u r rilly2 hardworking girl. *ehem* ^^

ouh.. i lupe nk ckp. when u start ur new life there (mrsm), tlg jgn terkejut ye. for a year.. u akan membenci lelaki dan u xkn b'cakap dgn lelaki. semua ni gara-gara ur current bf. i mean, ur monkey's love (read: direct translation from 'chenta monyet' lol). he will cheating on u. (shud i called dat guy ur bf? eventho u guys err, i mean 'we' neva had any date with him? juz calling2 and jupe time di kelas je. (dats y die cari yg len kot. lol) but dun worry. slowly u'll change. men are not ur nightmare 'nmore. u'll communicate with them again. yeah, men. because u rilly have a good classmate. :) and u shud b thankful, every sem u will be in d dean's list. congrats in advance for u, babe!! yeah, u r also a good friend and a good listener. u'll have alot of friends in future. juz make sure to b nice to them or later u'll regret dat u won't ave any good memories u'd spent with them. but dun worry, u will have great memories there. i mean in tran-X. Ops, did i mention ur mrsm's name???? lol. soccay.. later u'll know wut i'm writing ere is true..

ahaaa!! i ave one surprise news for u. but before dat, juz take a deep breath and read carefully. rite now, u r d only daughter in ur family rite? and u ave two brothers. along and adik fitri. but, by 2003 ur mom will be pregnant and u'll discovered dat news until she's 6-months preggy. tu pon when u noticed ur mom's belly looks bigger than usual. ok, dun panic. i noe, u'r still enesen and don't shares such thing with mom like i'm rite now. eheee~ :) when u heard d news, u r the most happiest person!!!! at 1st ur hoping d fetus will b a baby girl. on 23rd october 2003.. and it is 3 days left before ur graduation in mrsm, mom delivered a cute baby boy. wah, again.. u'll b d only daughter in ur family. u'r happi with d news but d feeling mixed up. b'coz your parents can't attend ur graduation day. plus.. on dat day, u'll get a dean's list award some more. all of emotion mixed up. but, still.. u shud b thankful to The Almighty. ur bro.. i mean the baby delivered safely. and once again.. don't b surprised~..suddenly dad will turns up at ur graduation day and u cried... alot!! sgt2 terharulah katekan. ehee~ ^^

heyp2~~ u seem excited hearing dis story, huh?? haha.. the most interesting part is here. lalala~ after finishing SPM papers, u had a plan in ur mind to work as a part timer. u noe.. u'll get a job, babe!! guess wut? as a baby sitter to ur lil bro~~.. eheee^^ now, u'll realize the hardship raising a child and u will also have a great time with u lil bro, both of u will become close. i mean rilly close. hee~ hey, u noe.. till now he will listen to wuteva i said. he's such a good boy..^^

*ehem* ur happiness are not end ere. after a month resting from SPM, u'll get an offer from one great IPTS in Malaysia based on ur trial exam. is it great? i noe, u'r still down b'coz of d previous interview didn't went well. u can't go to Rusia to chase for ur dream. being a doctor is a great job rite? with a great income also~ haha. but, hey.. cheer up!! at UTP u'll realized wut u r destined to be. (ou, my... ere i go again. did i mentioned the uni's name? lol) i noe, now u r thinking that engineers are created for men. not women like us. i mean real women. hey stop that typical thinking plz.. u don't know till u try it first. after a month study there, u'll like it until u rejected the matriculation offer which offered ur dream path, being a doctor. and u'll love engineering until u apply JPA scholarship to further study on the same course in Japan. and u manage to go to the interview session but i think ur journey to study at o'c end there. maybe u r destined to be here. chill~~^^ dun easily giv up, k!

i noe, u'll love dis place. dis uni is quite not bad. the facilities are 1st class.. the library.. the halls.. everything is almost perfect!! u'll surrounded by tonnes of wonderful frens and u'll faced a lot of real life problems that will make u who i am rite now.. hey, hey, listen to me. life is a cruel but it is a great teacher, u noe :) u will learn more from it. start from ur frens who are alwiz there for u, ur seniors who are alwiz sharing their experiences, ur mirc's chatters and k5 underground forummers who are alwiz cheer up ur days... it'll be so wonderful!! ^^ eventho till now i'm not rilly succesful in my love life.. don't b afraid, babe. believe me. one day i'll find d rite man. coz' we'd learnt from d lessons ;)

sorry, i noe dis letter is quite long and gives u a lot of surprises..!! enuf till ere, i guess. maybe later u'll received 2nd part of this letter. who's know, rite? eheee~ ^^ i wish u gud luck and do ur best k, babe? do not hesitate and strive for ur goal! gambattene~~ xoxo

p/s: hey, i forgot to tell u. rite now u r not chubby anymore. dun worry bout ur figure. ^^ it will alwiz maintain hawt. hahahaha~lol kidding2 :P

with love,
uena'09 ^^

The Mayonnaise Jar

a few weeks ago, azim called and i'd a long conversation with him. he said i'd changed and have no time for myself. rilly? even me myself not realized it. i try to think of it and yeah, true. i've been busy for a couple of months. u noe.. preparing tuition stuffs, GA's workloads, and work as a RO. no, no, i'm not complaining bout those loads. juz to admit that my life is quite dull after they graduated. no more mapley session till midnite, no more gile2 things, no more wyg session... u noe wut, azim. rilly.. i rilly miss those moments. i rilly miss the moment when i hang out with u guys around me.

but hey, last week i juz had a blast. again, i hang out and celebrate Merdeka as not-a-single-independent-lonely-woman~.. lol :P i ave them (read: wonderful frens^^) around me. thousand thanx to klise, amal, eena, wani, farah, belle, yap n his gf. u guys make my day!! ^^ siyes, we had a tonne of fun and joys. from medan ikan bakar to old town white coffee, then to mcD and finally @ bistro (ahh.. i forgot the name. nvm~nearest waterfront lumut kot) yeah, 'm happi.. ^^

and a few days ago, i juz received an email from azim. i noe, he worry bout me. *terharu* he wrote; 'this one is dedicated for u and u need to read it'. ou, my.. u r so sweet. but, sorry coz not updating any.. but u noe, azim. my crazy schedule already finished. thus, i hope u'r not worried bout me. i'm ok.. and happi with my life. u shud concentrate on ur other half too..~ ^^ hey, kawen cpt plzz!! haha :D

ok.. ere is the email from him; 'the mayonnaise jar' enjoys~~

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, without saying a word, he picked up a very large and empty
Mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.
He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full.
They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire
contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - Family, children, health, friends, and favorite passions
things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.
So...

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
Take time out with your friends.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the washing machine.

'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter.
Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.

what a nice philosophy, kn?^^

p/s: btw, for ur info.. my tight schedules already finished. and i'm back to normal. alwiz going back to my hometown..(almost every week kot!! hihi..best2!!) spending time with my family is the most precious things i eve had.. plus can't wait for along's new born baby!! heheee~~ along said, if his baby is girl, i can giv her a name. yippiieee~~!!! yeah2.. i have one in my mind. *Nur Qalesya* wahhh. xsaba!!

❤ Buzzer Beat ❤

read from here and suddenly ave an idea to post a new entry relating this drama series. nothing much to say.. rite now, i'm enjoying this jdorama. heee~ why eh?? of coz lah b'coz of this super duper cute + hensem+ macho+ adorable guy; yamapi!! ngeeee~ ^^ *bluch2* sgt2 jatuh chenta, hati tergolek-golek. lol!! :P basically, this drama is all about basketball and yamapi plays a roll as a professional basketball player for Arcs while keiko is a violinist. both of them are trying very hard struggling in their own world and tru this drama, i somehow realized that sooner or later we (read: young adults) will experienced difficulty in finding our confidence and dealing with pride in the working world. fuhh~ sound scary, rite?? soccay2.. that's one of the learning process in our life cycle, thus in future we will appreciate it more. ngee~ ^^

wuteva it is, juz enjoy our life to the fullest and dun forget to enjoy this drama!! hehe~

btw, lelaki-lelaki yg bermain basketballl sgt bergaya, ok~!! ngeee~~ *bluch2 lg*

Yamapi

Kitagawa Reiko

she's rilly2~~~~~~~~~~~~~ cute!!! cantek!!!~~ i like her lips. sexy2~!! ops, ter'lessy' kejup. :P btw, bout her lifes in this drama... hurm2, start with a normal-boring-single-lady@violinist-who-is-always-search-for happiness. she always mumbling with her best friend, mai bout -when-they-will-meet-their-destined-man and unexpectedly, one sweeeet day she met kamiya who's lost his cellphone on the same bus. and she return the phone to kamiya's coach (ops, sorry.. i don't remember his name.. ) instead of the owner. but anyway, they'd met by fate. slowly, love grows between both of them when kamiya is breaking up with his current gf, natsuki (cast by aibu saki). the plots are rilly awesome and make my heart fluttery. ngee~ by looking at both of them (kamiya & riko) or during the kissing scene between both of them, i'd melted!! lol~ euww, terjiwang sekejup :P

same as riko, i juz want to adapt these story in my life. single? yerp! tends to double? of coz!! lol~ juz wait for d rite person to pop up in front of my face. haha!! kidding2~ no need to hurry, babe~ it will come without u realize it. ne la tau, kot2 tbe2 t'jupe basketball player lak kan. lol!!!~~ :D

below are scenes from episode 05, where at the end of the drama, when heard a weird sound from kamiya's voice, riko felt uneasy and running to the training camp where's kamiya stayed and they bump into each other and........~~

ano~err.. *speechless*

*gasp❤*

p/s:*melt*melt* hahaha!!

mungkin seperti wanita bekerjaya yg hidup tanpa teman :P

Atau mungkin dgn erti kata lain 'independent woman'. lol~ cm kelakar pulak tajuk entri neh. heee~! disebabkan terlalu byk mengadaptasikan cerita-cerita atau babak-babak drpd filem, series, anime, cerekarama dan mcm2 lagi dalam kehidupan sendiri.. maka, terjadilah babak seperti tajuk di atas. ngee~ *bluch2*

nk dijadikan cerita, selepas abes ngaja tution which was my last day aja haziq.. mmg da plan awal2 nk g ipow amik gamba convo and nk shopping sket2.. i mean, shopping untuk brg2 dapur. tp, disebabkan minggu tu adalah minggu kemerdekaan dan akan cuti selama 3 ari, maka osmet2 suma tade- so, tggal aku sorg2 terkapai2. lol~ btw, xde la terkapai mane pon. cume duk sorg2 agak scary jugak lah. bile bgun sahur sorg2 nk masuk dapur. walopon bulan ramadhan, tp kepala aku ni ske sgt pk pelik2. adeh2~~

so, pergilah aku ke ipow sorg2..ulang skali lagi, SORANG2~ berbekalkan imaginasi yg satu; wanita bekerjaya yg hidup tanpa teman.. aku pon g je la amik gamba n jusco. wahh, best jugak! terasa dah dewasa, babe~~ haha! smbil jejalan tu, aku usha2 jam n sempat la beli jam selai. hihi.. pastu ternampak lak kat bahagian budak2, ade jual baju melayu and ade color yg sedondon ngan theme color raye kali ni. sbb adik2 aku tade lg baju melayu.. so, aku pon dgn murah atinye beli 2 pasang baju raya untuk adik2 aku. cm best lak rase... bile belikan brg2 untuk adik2 dan family ^^

misi mcm berjaya!! hihi ^^ dlm kepala, misi;wanita bekerjaya yg hidup tanpa teman; objektif tercapai! hahaha~~pastu g lak kt bahagian brg2 dapur. beli sket2 ape yg patut untuk masak spaghetti buat bekal berbuka nnt.. wah~ complete rutin hari sabtu aku sebagai wanita bekerjaya yg hidup tanpa teman!!! haha~:D

Bookfair @ UTP

td sesaje je la lintas2 kat depan book fair kt pocket D tu. xto la angin ape ari ni tbe2 nk usha2 buku2 kt situ. then, bile lalu kat satu booth ni.. this chinese guy promot kt aku magazine2 yg die bwk tu.. byk jugak lah.. malas lak aku nk list down kn kat sini. btw, bukan nk cite pasal magazine2 tu pon. tp, nk cite pasal promotion die yg aku rase sgt2 lah berbaloi!!! korg xcaye? meh kte belajar matematik ari ni...

ok, untuk dpt promotion tu aku kene langgan magazine yg weekly release.. cm the time, bizz week, newsweek dan ape ntah lg. xigt~ then, if langgan setahun akan dpt pilih 2 lg magazines yg kte nk langgan. tp, juz bayar untuk langgan weekly magazine tu je. dan kalo langgan 2 thun or 3 thun, dpt pilih 3 magazines yg len. so, untung x??

newsweek == RM12
setahun == RM12 x 52 weeks ==RM 624

tapi, disebabkan ade promotion td.. aku juz kene bayar RM449 je for 1 yr. so, amacam ?? worth x?? tapi, aku langgan for 2 yrs. so aku kene bayar RM898 and dpt 4 diff magazines monthly selama 2 thun!!! best2~~ kalo lah nk beli 4 magazines neh tiap2 bulan.. mau beribu2 jugak abes..-_-" kat bwh ni adalah magazine2 yg aku langgan tu~ heee!! ^^




p/s: terase dewasa kejup.. haha!!

convo!!

alhamdulillah... :)

sawang-sawang dan debu-debu

fuhh...fuhhh...~~ *hacchhhooommm!!!* *hacchoooommmm!!* haaaccc..~* aaa!! berdebu nye la hai blog aku ni. sebulan lebey beb x update. hahaha!! tgok2.. kan da bersin2 da. punye la byk sawang ngan debu2 neh.. lol

*cuci, lap2 sket*
haaa~~ bru nmpak comel sket.. kan~ kan~ hihi :P btw, lame kan xupdate blog ni. mesti sume org da lupe aku penah ade blog. (padahal bru je sebulan. wahaha:P) mesti sume org igt aku bz kan? kan? ne de bz.. tp, bz la jugak.. tp, selagi aku ade mase untuk makan n tdo, kire xbape nk bz la kan? haha!

nape aku xpenah/jrg on9 malam2? nape aku xpenah masuk mirc? nape aku jrg masuk k5? nape? nape? nape? lol --> sbb bilik aku port lan rosak. wuuu~~ T_T seigt aku, setakat ni da hampir lbey 3 kali da aku g komplen2 kat itms. tp, die xdtg2 jugak repair aku nye port tu. smpai ati, dorg!! T_T

anti-sosial?
ne de aku anti-sosial weyh. yela2, aku ngaku. aku jrg masuk mirc, aku jrg masuk k5, aku on9 siang2 je.. tu pon kdg ade kdg tade, kan. tp.. siyes aku xanti-sosial. ne deee~ cume sbb xde internet connection je. sbb tu aku menyepi memalam. tp, facebook aku active je, kn!! hehehe :P
mapley session? aa~ i'm too old for dat stuff. ops!! haha~ x, la.. xtually dis month quite bz. tp, smpat lg la makan-tdo. heee~ nk harapkn g mapley n lepak2 smpai ke pg.. err, mmg tak lah kan. xmampu, babe~ kang xbgun g keje kang. haha!

yelah2.. aku ngaku, dis month xde mase sgt untuk keseronokan diri sniri, kurang mase untuk family dan kengkawan. tp, nk wat cane. UPSR nk dekat da weyh, pastu mane dgn convocation lg, mane dgn project lg, mane ngan study lg, mane dgn GA work lg, mane dgn training insurance lg.. wuwuwuwu~ insyaallah, after august akn kurang sket bz.. ade la sket2 ruang nk b'seronok2. ngee~

15/8 == keje!!
aku nk convo weyh, tp kene keje ari sabtu. (tp, cm everyday == weekdays je. haha! aku rase cm aku da xde weekend da. adeh2!) disebabkan Tun M nk dtg buat soft-launch di blok P (blok di mana aku b'kerja skan ni) t'paksa la b'kerja ari tu. tp, project leader da siap janji2 ngan ktorg.. later kitorg akan dpt extra cuti sehari. yay!! ngeee~

sori ye kengkawan, kalo time convo nnt mcm xsempat nk b'suka ria sgt :)

bunge
haa~ smalam mak sebuk2 call tnye aku nk bunge ape tuk convo nnt.. *terharu* ngeee~ aku ckp,la.. xkesah pon mak. ikot mak la. hehe~ so, *ehem* untuk sape2 yg terase2 nk kasik bunge kat aku time convo nnt, dtg la session pg ye. sbb CV, CHE, dan BIS nye session pada morning session. hik3 :P haa~ jgn lupe bwk hp pulak ye, yelah.. nnt nk kasik bunge n nk carik aku tgah2 crowd kat chansellor hall tu susah kot. so, koling2 la ye kalo nk kasik bunge tu. hahaha!!!!
kidding~ ^^