STOP!

in the name of  LOVE ~

before you break my heart...

Saje Je

Terlalu banyak berfikir... tidak bagus juga kan? Itu lah, lain di fikir.. lain pulak yang dibuatnya. Haru! Boleh jadi tua gamaknya. Sikit sikit fikir begini, sikit sikit fikir begitu. Sampai bila sudahnya. Bisa menimbulkan garis garis halus di wajah sungguh! Jadi bagaimana? Tepuk dada tanya selera? Heh..~ Dulu mungkin phrasa itu boleh diguna pakai, tapi jikalau mahu mengaplikasikan pada manusia yang berhati batu ini... rasanya payah! Ikut suka kepala dia saja, bila tergadah baru tahu menyesal dan nak mengaku salah. Masa tu, keluar air mata darah sekali pun dah tak guna dah. haih~ manusia... manusia... macam macam peel betul.

Tengoklah tingkahnya sekarang, suka sangat mengikut kata hati. Kononnya dialah yang betul bagai. Kadang, bila difikir fikir boleh diguna pakai juga kata kata yang keluar dari bibir manusia yang satu itu. heh~! Cukup cukuplah mengimpikan sesuatu yang tak tercapai dek akal. Bodoh, bukan? Objek asing yang hanya beberapa kali melilau di depan mata, dipuja dan digilai. Sedangkan benda benda lain di depan mata, langsung tidak diendahkan. Padahal entah apa nilai objek tersebut tidak diketahui. Inilah resmi manusia... gajah di depan mata tak nampak, walhal kuman di seberang laut nampak pula!

Hmpph!!

Eternal Flame- Bangles

Hope you guys enjoy this song and clip~~!! ^^

p/s: currently I'm always listening to this song.. ngeee~

Peliklah!!

Malam ni, ntah la nape.. rase pelik sesangat. xtau macam mane nk describe rase tu. aku rase mcm nk isolate diri aku drpd sume org. aku rase mcm nk duk sorg2 lam gua. pernah terlintas di fikiran aku untuk berhijrah ke suatu tempat, di mana tidak seorang pon mengenali aku. pernah juga terlintas di benak ku untuk menukar phone no. dan mulakan hidup yg baru. tapi, kenapa?? ntahlah.. aku sendiri tidak pasti dengan jawapan yang patut aku nyatakan. apa yg aku tau, malam ni betul-betul pelik. tiba-tiba rase ganjil muncul dalam diri aku.

kadang terasa seperti si kalah yg lari dari medan perang. tidak pon sempat bertarung sudah mengangkat bendera putih. tapi, hati tetap degil menidakkan setiap butir fakta yang ternyata. sungguh begitu tegar sang hati. tapi, sedari kecil mak memang selalu bercerita. aku memang degil. mungkin perangai degil tu semakin menjadi-jadi.. adeh!!

atau mungkin aku boleh salahkan hormon? kerna munculnya rase janggal yang jarang melewat diri.. ya, mungkin juge. tapi...
Ntah, lahhh~

P/s: aku tau, aku tidak perlu lari. tp, jika sunyi hadir mengantikan jasad ini.. harap kalian dpt memahami situasi diri.

Eros and Thanatos

humans were driven by two conflicting central desires: the life drive; Eros (survival, propagation, hunger, thirst, and sex) and the death drive; Thanatos (an urge inherent in all living things to return to a state of calm: in other words, an inorganic or dead state).

 Think about it...~ 

Selamat Hari Raya!!!

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin to my dearest family, friends and readers.

to those on their way back to kampung, please drive safe. Looking forward to hanging out at all your open houses! Muahahahaha.

Again, a warm selamat hari raya wish to all. If anything that i do wrong, mistake that have ever hurt you, please forgive me, sincere from the bottom of my heart. May the coming of Syawal would be the month of forgiveness to all of Muslim.. Amin..

p/s: Berhati-hati di jalan raya, makan pun berpada2 la yer~ jgn main mercun, ok! kalo nk men tu, ajak ah skali. hik3 :P

Akai Ito

Akai Ito @ Red Thread
also referred to as the red thread of destiny or red thread of fate.
"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet, regardless of time, place, or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break."

- an ancient Chinese belief

The two people connected by the red thread are said to be destined lovers, regardless of time, place or circumstances. It is said that this magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break. This myth is similar to the Western concept of soulmates or a twin flame. The legend has since also become a popular myth in Japanese culture and other East Asian cultures.

p/s: now i tend to jot down/save every little details that attracted me (i don't know till when it will last :P). u know, like the previous entries. i'd watched 'Mr. Brain' and most of my latest posts are related to it. this time, i watched 'akai ito' and i'd found one interesting myth to share. when i discovered something new or some facts that are interesting to share to, i love to write it. thus later, if i can't memorize or happened to have any disease that can erase memories, at least i have something to read and remember.. :)

@_@

can't sleep. asyik terjaga je sejak lelapkan mata td. nape eh?td b4 tdo, sbb susah sgt nk lelapkan mata.. saje je la men rubik. ne la tau, dgn ke'noobs'an aku tu ley pejamkan mata kan.. tp, still duk terbuka lg mata ni walaupun kepala b'denyut sakit. next, aku capai lak discovery channel nye magazine. adeh2.. makin segar bugar lak rase. kepala neh xtolah nk cite sakitnye.T_T asalnye tanak la bangun untuk b'sahur arini. memandangkan td da minum air before nk tdo. tp, cm sia2 lak duk t'baring atas katil..rumet g kafe lak beli makanan tuk b'sahur. then, call rumet nk mintak belikan nasi putih n nk panaskan lauk yg masak time berbuka smalam. tp, nasi putih tade lak kt kafe. dah abes lah agaknye. kul 5 da pon.

so, t'paksa lah merajinkan diri sedikit. kuarkan ape yg patut from fridge n masak air dan juga pau roti rumet. haha! jadilah..~ alhamdulillah.. kenyang! ngee~ eh, xsdar lak mase makin menginjak imsak.~ wuu.. next! mata neh semakin segar bugar lak die.. jum2.. prepare tuk solat subuh lak. kalo pas subuh stil xpat pejam mata, cm nk g jogging lah. sure bile masuk office kang jd xbtol. haha! :P xpon, jd cm kat bwh tu...; heee~ :Pp/s: Ape2 pon.. selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa yang hanya tinggal beberapa hari saje lagi. dan marilah same2 kte tingkatkan amal kte pada bulan mulia ini.. :)

Little crazy thing

Have you ever been obsessed or crazy about someone? What about a crush or an infatuation? Do you recall how you were unable to think of anything but that other person? How ’bout the mood swings from euphoria to despair? Do you recall feeling addicted or the way separation only amplified the longing? Do you recall the depression, frustration, and embarassment associated with an unreciprocated crush? What about the craving for union and the possessiveness?

If so, then you know first-hand something about this crazy little thing called “love.” It is sweet and bitter both – a craving we won’t let go of and that won’t release us even if we want it to. That intense romantic focus provides a sense of complete and permanent devotion (which turns out to be inaccurate in fact) – even as it generates immense pain when it is unrequited or otherwise impossible. What creates this wonderful source of pain, this ache of passion – Cupid’s hurts-so-good arrow piercing the heart?

“An Affair Of the Head: They Say Love Is All About Brain Chemistry.”

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It’s all about dopamine. This One Great True Love, this passionate thing we’d burn down the house and blow up the car and drive from here to there just to see the face of the dearest one. You crave it because your brain tells you to. . . .

Dopamine. God’s little neurotransmitter. Better known by its street name, romantic love. Also, norepinephrine. Street name, infatuation.

These chemicals are natural stimulants. You fall in love, a growing amount of research shows, and these chemicals and their cousins start pole-dancing around the neurons of your brain, hopping around the limbic system, setting off craving, obsessive thoughts, focused attention, the desire to commit possibly immoral acts with your beloved, and so on.

Some of these love chemicals in the brain, scientists measure by the picogram, which is a trillionth of a gram. How fragile, this crazy little thing called love.

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In her most recent research, Fisher and colleagues gave 32 love-struck subjects an MRI scan while they viewed a picture of their beloved.

Boy, did their brains light up!

There are two shrimp-size things on either side of your brain called the caudate nuclei. This is the gear that operates bodily movements and the body’s reward system: “the mind’s network for general arousal, sensations of pleasure, and the motivation to acquire rewards,” Fisher writes. And when the test subjects looked at their sweeties, these things started singing “Loosen Up My Buttons” with the Pussycat Dolls! lol~

This then, kicked the party over to the tiny ventral tegmental area, a little peapod-size thingy that sends dopamine bopping around your head. This is what scientists call lots of fun.

A separate study by Italian researchers several years ago showed something else. Serotonin, another neurotransmitter in the brain associated with obsession, depression and racing thoughts, was greatly affected — right down to the molecular level — by romance and surging dopamine. People newly in love and people with obsessive-compulsive disorder showed the same lowered levels of the “platelet 5-HT transporter.” In other words, dopamine appears to suppress serotonin, which in turn triggers obsessive-compulsive thought patterns.

You can’t stop thinking about him/her. No wonder! he/she is hiding under a wet flap of cortex! Your brain is officially in love, and it officially is driving you crazy.

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Cupid can’t last, you know. Oxytocin and other chemicals kick in, running around your brain to make you bond with your lover, producing a mellower, more sustainable relationship.

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Dopamine leaves the scene of the affair, now running off into the nucleus accumbens, the insular cortex, the lateral orbitofrontal cortex, research by Fisher and others shows. Jilted lovers’ brains now light up in these areas when they look at pictures of their former flames — this brain matter is associated with taking big risks, addiction, physical pain and obsessive-compulsive disorders. This is why, researchers theorize, people become obsessed with lost love, and are driven, in extreme cases, to stalk, suicide, homicide, rubber tubing.

Regan, the California researcher, notes that such cases are rare, and may have more to do with existing mental issues than simple unrequited love. Still, she says, passion is destined to end . . . . Given this, she wonders if “we do our self a disservice by glorifying passionate love so much.”

“The search for eternal passion is very misguided,” she says. “It’s the search for the perfect high that keeps people discarding relationships right and left . You don’t feel the same way you did; people want to break up, instead of seeing it as normal.”

And so, alas. Even neurologists, to go with Shakespeare’s priest, now tell us passion is true love’s fool’s gold, a flamboyant dead end on the evolutionary chain of primate happiness. The only problem with this insight is that no one pays it any mind. Doomed passion may not make us right, and it may not even make us very happy. It only makes us human. It only makes us who we are.

smiles versus brain

There are two types of smiles:

• the first type is when human are in a situation where they think " i want to smile..." the brain's frontal cortex, which deals with emotion takes delicate control of the facial muscles to create a natural smile.

• conversely, if you try to force yourself to smile the locomotor center sends the order "SMILE" to control the muscles. but, that doesn't go very well. the smile always ends up looking awkward.

in order to smile naturally, the frontal lobe which controls emotion creates it :)