USM Career Exhibition

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ola, dear frens~~ for ur information, there is a career exhibition in USM. the exhibition will be held from 27th Feb - 1st March. For more info, click d link above.
Gud luck, guys!!
^^

Alhamdulillah :)

I dunnoe how, who, or what encouraged me...
but, I guess it is Dia who give a strengh to me.
Alhamdulillah, syukur.
no matter what,
I'll moving forward..
and
look at the bright sides.
Thanx to my mom, who alwiz b there beside me..
Thanx to all my dear frens yg alwiz gave me supports..
Thanx for calling me, sms-ing me, pm-ing me...
Thanx!!
luvya all :)

dan untuk awk..
jz remember,
being with u.. is d most wonderful things I eva had in my life.
and u neva hurt me. I'm alwiz happi with u till the end of our stories..
and dun blame urself for wuteva things dat happened
Insyaallah, things will be fine for us
and I'll keep my promises till the end...
take care of urself, kay
and
yeah, we're still fren :)

mamma mia!

hoyeah...~ here they r. in KL!! wanna watch dis shows, but... err~ financially broken. haha :P the performance will be held on 17th Dec 2008 until 1st Jan 2009. so, i've for about 1 month++ to order d ticket. i'd juz read d star newpaper @ irc and they said d early bird will get 20% discount on d tcket price. walawei~ mauuu!! but... if i've got a chance to seat in d front row, bapak best!! (tp.. d ticket's price..erk!!)

sangat suke ABBA's songs~ mau pergi!! Timeless songs such as Dancing Queen, I Have a Dream, Voulez-Vous, and Take a Chance on Me, are ingeniously woven into an enchanting tale of love, laughter and friendship.

A mother. A daughter. 3 possible dads.
And a trip down the aisle you'll never forget!

A dream during bathe... gilos!

yeah.. finally!! si otak seminit ini (click me!! click me!! i'm clickable!! ^^) already decided 'bout wut she gonna do for her future career & life, juz now in d bathroom~ haha :p

graduate + looking for work >> work (as an engineer maybe! ^^) + find a U to further study >> work + further study >> being a lecturer!!

hopes this decision will come true and last!! haha :P

but, err.. as a lecturer?? biar betik!! haha. in my life... everything dat i dun want at a 1st place (click me!! click me!! i'm clickable!! ^^), at the end for sure i'll end up with it. haish~ it is soooOOO... opposed from my will! but wut can i do. it's already written in qada' & qadar. huhu, redha je la ye ^^~

I'll let u fly...

kelmarin..
ia datang dan terbang di dalam ruang kamarku,
terbang bebas..
satu, ia hinggap di bebalik helaian langsir,
dua, ia berhenti pula di bawah lampu kalimantang,
yang terang mengruahkan cahayanya di ruang kecil ini,
dan untuk ketiga kalinya..
ia terbang menghampiriku.

semalam..
ia datang lagi,
baru aku sedari,
cantik sungguh corang coreng warna di badannya,
aku cuba amati setiap inci tubuhnya,
kupu-kupu atau rama-rama?
aku pasti..
ia adalah sang rama-rama,
mana mungkin sang kupu-kupu menyerupai sang rama-rama,
tp,
mungkin juga ia adalah kupu-kupu..
ahh, persetankan semua itu!
aku cuma mahu menceritakan..
kali ini, ia datang lg menghiasi bilik ku.
seperti kelmarin...

hari ini..
detikan jam di dinding membuatkan aku ternanti-nanti,
mungkinkah ia akan dtg lg??
tiba-tiba terasa gelap dunia ku..
kringgg~~~
aku di kejutkan dengan bunyi telefon bimbitku,
perlahan ku bukakan mata,
dan...
aku yg tadi nya berbantal kan lengan,
terkejut!
ia kaku di balik buku-buku teks yang berselerakn di atas meja.
seolah memerhatikan lagak aku yg tidur sedari td,
sungguh, penantian aku tidak tersia..
ia dtg lagi hari ini,
aku mula merasakan ia kepunyaan ku..
aku mula takut untuk melepaskan ia pergi..
aku mula fikir ia mungkin xkan dtg kembali..
aku mula mengunci semua tingkap-tingakap..
dan menutup segala inci ruang kamar..
aku mula tamak..
tapi,
kali ini..
ia tidak lagi terbang bebas..
ia tidak lagi hinggap di merata..
seolah rajuk membawa diri..
aku terasa,
seperti aku tidak memiliki diri nya..
selama ini,
aku sangkakan ia aku punya..
tapi,
ternyata tidak.

perlahan aku bukakan tingkap,
dan aku lepaskan ia pergi..
andai ia milik ku,
suatu hari nanti pasti ia akan hinggap di dalam kamar ini lg..
yang satu itu,
aku cukup yakin..
terbanglah..~
-end-

sekuntum bunga

di balik reranting dan kayu kayan yg begitu semak, terselit sebatang pokok. pokok mawar nama nya. tidak berbunga atau berkumbang, dek terlindung drpd segala zat nutrisi. alkisah, dtg lah seorg pekebun. dan dia duduk berehat di atas kayu kyan yg selama ini menghalang si pokok mendapatkan nutrisi. ketika berehat-rehat, si pekebun ini memerhati ke seluruh kawasan itu. akhirnya, pandangan dia tertumpu pada sebatang pokok mawar t'sebut. hairan tidak t'kata. jgnkan bunga, sekuntum kudup pon tidak menonjolkan diri masing2.

berfikir dia sebentar. lantas tanpa lengah dia mengeluarkan parang dan terus membersihkan kawasan itu. dalam sekelip mata sahaja, kawasan yg td nya semak, kini bersih sudah. akalnya berfikir.. cukup lah untuk sang pokok mendapatkan nutrisi nya tanpa dihalang oleh semak2 itu. saban hari, si pekebun dtg menjengah sang pokok.. di siram nya si pokok mawar, di baja nya si pokok mawar, di racun nya segala makhluk perosak yg ingin merosakkan si pokok mawar... dan di cantas nya semua parasit2 yg cuba untuk memusnahkan si pokok mawar.

hari demi hari berlalu. berkat keprihatinan dan kegigihan pekebun tersebut, suatu hari si pokok mawar mula mengeluarkan kudup nya. makin hari makin memekar ia. tetapi.. di sangka panas hingga ke petang. rupanya hujan di tengahari. si pokok mawar yg ditunggu bunga nya, tiba2 hampir-hampir di hancurkan oleh kaki-kaki manusia yg sibuk berlarian tanpa mengendahkan kehadirannya. mujur... si pekebun cepat smpai. sedaya upaya dia cuba untuk menyelamatkan si pokok mawar. kudup2 yg kian memekar masih lagi boleh di selamatkan.. :)

cuma.. apa yg dirisaukan, bolehkah kudup2 itu terus mekar mewangi tanpa penjagaan si pekebun? adakah pekebun mampu menghalang anasir-anasir luar drpd menghapuskan si bunga mawar? apakah yg perlu di lakukan oleh si pekebun andai suatu hari nnt kejadian yg sama berulang kembali? bagaimanakah nasib si bunga mawar? mampukah duri yg merintik mengawal sang kuntum dprd kejadian sebegitu? ohh.. nasib si bunga mawar~

p/s: jgn cuba untuk memahami isi kandungan post ini. thanx!

to-do-waiting-list

on 22-24th August, there will be d most biggest event in UTP (err.. is that so??lantak lew~) which is d convocation event and the most popular part is d convo fair itself. xtually can't wait for dat days, coz this time i guess there are alot of 'surprises' are waiting for me. hohoho, berdebar eden.. err.. btw, this is not berdebar in 'that way' but in the other way..hahaha:P let me clear up 1st the to-do-waiting-list (aceyhhh!!!):

1. Abg shak!! hehehe.. waiting for him to pop up and belanje me!! lalala~~ andddd... lotz of stuffs need to share w/ him. abg dun forget to introduce kak yana (my sister in-law...ops! bakal~~) to me, ek..
2. next is Jakas!!! can't wait to see him dating w/ her nuuuuu gf!!! hoho..kantoi seyh~ sorok lagi dr aku!!
3. then, sape lg ye?? ahhha! intan n d geng~~ padil, jem (rem lew~) and sudin! hik3 ley mintak dorg banje.. wohoho~ ley gumuks nih!! :P alamak, terlebih suda... !
4. Ain~~~ my ex-rum8 t'CHENTA!!! hahaha. rily mish her. it's quite a long time i didn't met her. and 2nite she'll b arrived 'ere around 9 pm and i'm gonna pick her up in front of UTP n she's going to stay in my rum!! yay~~ ley gosipps2... hik3:P
5. hmm.. lg2?? etc... etc... wut is it?? adddelaaaa~~ hahaha :P

plusss...can't wait to see lotzzz of drama!! haha.. bak kate jebs!ngeh3~ weyh, jebs.. aku jd director, ye. hik3:P (cm jebs bace je blogs aku ni..:P) yadaaa~~ yadaaa~ alot of gelagat makes d excitement is in d air~~ lalala.. ^^ ade yg count down for their beloved gf/bf to come to UTP ehem2~... ade yg prepare sumthing... sumthing... for their sum1 special~ eheee! :P and macam2 lagi, laa.. juz wait and see!! hik3 ^^

so, do comes and enjoy our last convo fair.. (final sem babe~~) and lets support our batch booths~ "Jhok-a-touille" and "ABG BUJANG FINAL SEM (FREESTYLE)" hoho, bapak gediks name!! :P

weekend yg ...

lame xupdate. kemalasan telah melanda diri. ditambah pula dgn kebuntuan dan ketandusan ide2. langsung membuatkan aku terus-terusan bermalas-malasan untuk mengetuk2 papan kekunci lappy ku ini.

ema went back to KL..
pia 've a bbq @ pangkor w/ her cosm8 or can i say she's now enjoying her pre-honeymoon?? hahaha..:P
fyek yg alwiz in front of her lappy..
yan, same as fyek..also facing her lappy, doing her FYP progress report maybe~ (wah, thank God i'd done mine!!!)
thanx to sum1 coz' make me finished up my progress report. xtually jelous kt die coz' die can finished and submitted earlier than me..!! cis~~

so, wut i'm gonna do today?
err... *speechless*
yadaaa~ yadaaa~ xkn la juz nk facing my lappy je kan? busan amat! heppppp~~!!!
yeah, i noe..i have bunch of works waiting for me.*sigh* but.. today i juz wanna relax my mind n enjoy this damn bored moment happily, perhaps~ haha :P btw, this is not a rilly bored moment for me. maybe a happiest moment kot?? coz' finally i guess i'm totally can overcome and cleared up my mind from d 'thing'. hahaha~ yatta!! ^^ dah2 takyah pk da pasal tu. buang mase jeee!
(p/s: to osmet, pas ni kurang la sket session luahan hati :P)

uh.. mau layan DH kejup,la~ last word from me, enjoy ur single life while it last!!! :P do u?? now... i'm!!! eheeee~
next target: job hunting!! hoyeah~~~

rest for a while ^^

For this moment, my blogs will be rested for a while :P
Juz wanna clear up everything in my mind and start of something new! ^^
Maybe there are a lot of defragmenting works (like Tsubasa Chronicles... ehee :P)
i'll be back~ ^^

mesin dimensi waktu

Alhamdulillah.. murah tul rezeki aku ari ni. mase b'buka puasa td, kak sue belanja McD~~~ besh2!! macey kak sue...! cayunk die...mmuuaaahhh!!! :P tetapi, di sebalik kisah aku b'buka puasa kt McD tu, ade suatu kejutan buat diri ku.

turun je drpd kereta, kitorg (aku, faei n kak su) trus menuju ke pintu masuk McD. faei trus menuju ke kaunter (lapo sgt kot...padahal pose!! ngeh3) dan kak su jln b'iringan dgn aku. semasa aku melepasi patung Ronald McDonald tu, tbe ade seorang kanak-kanak perempuan kecil yg sgt comel memaut tgn ku. umur nya dlm lingkingan 2 - 3 tahun. comel paras wajahnya. aku merenung wajah nya yg comel itu. die masih lg memauh erat tgn ku. tersentuh naluri keibuanku.. aku seolah-olah merasakan ada sesuatu antara aku dan anak kecil itu. lalu aku memulakan bicara dgn si cilik itu..

"adik nk ape ni..? mane mama??"

dgn aksi yg lincah die tersenyum girang sambil memengang erat tgnku. "tu..." si kecil itu menunding ke suatu arah. anak mata ku mengikut ke arah jari telunjuk si kecil itu.

"ouh.." aku sempat t'senyum kembali kepadanya sebelum dia berlari ke arah ibu nya kembali.

"kak sue, cumel kan budak td tu.. pelik lah nape die tbe-tbe pegang tgn una."
"ha'a kan una. ntah2 die igt una ni mak die kot..hehe"
"err..xkn la kot. ntah2 die tu anak una kot. die guna mesin dimensi waktu. that's y die pegang tgn una cmtu kot?"
"hahahaha... ngarut ahh una ni..."

adehh... aku lak yg di katakan mengarut..btol ape. cube tgok cite "back to the future" tu. bley je dorg merentasi waktu. kan2?? nothing is impossible. aku mula b'angan-angan. kalo la budak tu adalah anak aku.. wah, cumel tul! xsangka aku ade anak yg secomel tu. (btw, mmg da sangka kot.. :P ibu die kan comel. hahaha:P perasan2!! wek~)

tetapi ape yg aku tidak boleh lupakan adelah sewaktu si kecil itu memegang erat tgn ku. seolah-olah tidak mahu melepaskan pegangan tgn ku. rugi nya, tidak sempat aku nk mengabadikan gambar die.. mungkin sudah pulang mengikut family die.

^^

yay!

Phew...~at last!! I starting my busy life again~ hope it'll b helpful to forget the unnecessary things.. yatta!!!

nota kaki: to be w/ sum1 u luv, who luvs u back...
it's not an easy thing

Hanya kau yg mampu

one sided love... *sigh*
I just keep all those feeling silently. after all, I have nobody to tell 'bout dis feeling. to him?? I dun think so, b'coz at d 1st place lyk I said b4 this is one sided love (+ malu beb...). hardly I tried to remember how this feeling started to develop itself. I'm just clueless... haih~

and suddenly I realized that I miss him alot, and alwiz waiting for him to on9. I dun really know what actually happened in my life currently. lately, I alwiz wake up early in d morning (5 a.m). reason?? juz waiting for his gtalk status to become green and hoping he'll pm-ing me. -_-" (gila aku ini..) *sigh* I kept viewing his profile... I kept thinking bout him: without fail! huhu and b'coz of him, I alwiz rejected other guys who's asked me to went out w/ them. my lyf is completely change..a lotttttttttttt!

*sigh* again? I dun like dis feeling. I hope one day it can vanished itself and i can move out and I can escape from dis feeling. perhaps... coz i noe, he'll never be mine. or there is a hope?? ntah,laa...

Ya, Allah ya Tuhanku. Engkau yg Maha Berkuasa lagi Maha Mengetahui. berikanlah sedikit petunjuk kepada diriku. Bebaskanlah aku daripada segala belenggu rasa ini. sesungguh nya, tidak tertahan lagi aku menanggung sakit ini. Andai dia bukan untukku, Engkau jauhkanlah dia daripada hidupku. Tetapi, jika sebaliknya.. Alhamdulillah. Hanya kepada-Mu aku mampu berserah. Ameen~

bluch!!

“If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you, I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you, I wouldn't miss you.
But I did, I do, and I will.”

btw, i would lyk to dedicate this quote to sum1 special and hopes one day
i can text those words to him..
Ameen~

*kdt to Rem*

Tunang????

First of all, aku nk panjatkan kesyukuran ke hadrat Ilahi... Alhamdulillah.

Bangun je tdo td, tbe2 pia dtg ke katil. then, ntah kenapa... ape yg aku simpan kemas di dalam lubuk hatiku, aku luahkan pada pia. ntah,lah.. mungkin sudah tidak tertahan aku memendam dan perkara itu seringkali menghantui ku saban malam. thanx, pia... terima kasih kerna sudi menjadi pendengar yg setia dan memberi kata-kata nasihat kepada diri ini. terima kasih sahabat.. luv u ^^.

sesudah selesai sesi meluahkan rasa, ema pula menyusul masuk da lepak di katil aku. (err, bila aku nk mandi ni??hahaha:P) die bwk selipar yg aku pesan kt die tu. die blk kL. then, aku pesan selipar yg de bunga seketul kt atas tu. then, die belikan...wah, muat la pulak~~ thanx ema!!

Aku pelik, apsal la muka budak ni (ema) b'seri-seri sgt ni. suddenly she said, 'bulan 21/12 ni kte tunang..' "huh?????" aku ngan pia t'kejut beruk. siyes??? wahh, bestnyee... ema antara kawan aku yg t'awal menyusul langkah ke alam baru...dunia perkahwinan. Alhamdulillah.. akhirnya, bertemu jodoh jugak die. "Patut la muke dr td b'seri-seri... seri pengantin rupanya." pia mengusik ema.. bagus, la. pagi-pagi lagi da dpt berita yg baik ni.

Insyaallah, akan aku cuba untuk menghadiri majlis pertunangan ema. walopon 20/12 tu adalah majlis perkahwinan cousin ku, tp..akan ku cuba mengagahkan diri ke rumah ema. da, la before this xpenah gi umah ema. wahh~~ best nye ^^ ema da nk tunang... Semoga b'bahagia hingga ke anak cucu ye. Ameen~

New Face~

after long time malas2 updating my blogs.. last nite suddenly i felt to change it skin to a new one. and now... taraaa!!! no more dark background, no more quite gothic look pic... and the color of font also changed~~ from pink to the navy blue. other than that, i also changed the template. coz' the older template make the space of text quite small b'coz of a lil margin. so i changed the template from minima dark to Harbor. so, the space for the text xdelah too narrow... :)

i also changed my clock's skin..hehe. from purple round circle to orange fruits!!! I think it give this blog a new refreshing look..(perasan la pulakkk...:P) and wut happen to my 'quite gothic look pic'?
<---niee haaa gambo tu. gothic ke?? hmm.. xde la sgt kan?? juz quite an egoistic women i guess~~ rite now i replacing this pic with this one --->
it is cute rite?? i like the phrase "Look what I found for you. It was all alone and lonely.." when i looked at this pic, i feel my whole body fill with bubbling touched.

and juz now, i got a positive comment from kak sue:
Name: Suhaila Bt. Abd. Halim
Nickname: Kak Sue
Age: 23
Hometown: Sg. Petani, Kedah
Location: V5J Level 5, UTP
Hobby: sleeping maybe?? hehehe:P x,laaaa... blogging i guest.
Testimonial: wahh, kak sue suke la uena nye skin blogs yg baru ni...nice~
Me: hehe..thanx kak sue!! ^^

the title of this blogs also changed to "I think I...". before this, the title of this blog is "Secret of my life" this is because, b4 dis... all of the things in here are secrets to reveal to others. but then, rite now i'd opened this blog to all of my frens to giv sum advises or comments. and feel free to critcs also about anything regarding to my post or my tought...

oppss, forget to tell the main reason why this blog has a new face. kalo bukan sebab ini i thought there wouldn't be any changes...hehehe. thanx!!! So, dear frens... keep viewing my blogs and do leave any comments or advises for me.. i noe this blog contains lotz of crappy things. but, enjoyyyssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Spouse

i juz read Star newspaper borrowed from pia. die je la yg rajin beli..hehehe:p and suddenly my eye was caught by 'marriage' word. hmm, quite interesting gak, this article. its title is "Love takes work" by Louisa Lim. she had attended a typical marriage boot camp by 61-year-old Mike Constantine, a part- time marriage guru and full time husband. ahha! forget to jot down.. Constantine said, before this he hate the word "spouse". coz' it sounds too much like 'mouse' or 'louse'! or for me it sounds more likely like 'spongebob' hahaha :P Nevertheless, spouse is the only word in the english language that refer to a married person, man or women. thus, finally he try to find out himself and found that "spouse" is xtually derived form Latin word spondere, which means a solemn promise. A spouse, then is someone who solemnly promises to love and homour his or her marriage partner. Finally he said, "And that, to me, is amazing."

the main purpose of this camp is to reveal to the married couple about life after married and how to face the problem w/ ur partner. yeah, i admitted every marriage and love relationship needs hard work and understanding each other. in my own point of view, if the marriage couple facing a problem, they shudn't think about divorce. coz' i think the divorce word shud be always the last resort. When all efforts to build and reconcile have been exhausted, or when a spouse is unfaithful and unrepentant. ok, let reviews the Marriage myths debunked, below (btw, it's quite amazing to know this facts before u married!! hehehe ^^):

• Marriage will end your loneliness: u're in for a major dissapointment if u xtually jumped on d marriage bandwagon with this in mind. Many married people are lonely, b'coz according to marriage guru Mike Constatnitne, it's a case of recognising that "a marriage won't make u happy, but u make a marriage happy." my comment: agree!! if we r too depending on the marriage itself to enhance both relationship between partners, it won't be a success. coz' marriage is also like a piece of paper. we must know how to create a beautiful landscape and this need a commitment from both parties. if not, u already noe the result~~
  

• You won't be plaggued with problems if u're truly in luv: Perfect relationships don't exist. According to reowned psychologist Dr. Phil, "Arguing can xtually help the qualitiy and longevity of a relationship. The issue isn't whether u fight; it's how u do it." my comment: bak kate pepatah, it can spice up the realtionship! and after tru' all of this hardness i'll sure that u'll noe them better! ^^
  

• Having babies will boost ur bond: Remember post-partum depression? The arrival of newborn can b hard on a woman's body n emotions. Numerous couples have been driven apart by their children because it adds stress to their marriage. my comment: babies!! wahaha..i really like them. opsss, this is not 'bout me...ahaha :P hopes my future husband can consider all of this thing and can help me out by take care of our babies too..hik3 thus, less stress can be found in our marriage..(ameen!)
  

• Getting married means saying sayonara to ur sex lyf: Studies have shown that married peoples have more sex than their unmarried counterparts. Not only do they have sex more often, but they also enjoy it more, both physically and emotionally. my comment: err...ano~~ i can't comment on this topic. coz' as a muslim having sex before married is a taboo behavior. So, i guess for sure la after married the enjoyment of having sex is better! ^^ (hamboi!! pepandai die jeee...:P)
  

• A great marriage depends on a great meeting of minds: As Dr. Phil puts it, "Men n Women are wired up differently. You're different genetically, physically, spiritually... so why wouldn't you b mentally and emotionally different?" Now, celebrate those differences, and compromise! my comment: one word pop up in my mind: tolerance. try to accept each other weaknesses. and at the end both of u will b happy and understand each other better..~
  

• Romance will always be alive in a good marriage: This isn't Hollywood! In the real world, every relationship has its peaks and valleys. Love will eventually shift from fiery passion to a warm amber glow. my comment: hoyeah!!~ this is reality maaa~~ get up from ur imagination or fantasy world!! it's not a Hoollywood case only, but also Bollywood!! hahaha:P everything must be perfect like planning. but, in the real world... nuthing can b done like dat!
  

wah~~ lame xpost some facts..nmpak sgt gile boring!!!hahahaha:D fuhh~~ ouh, before i end up my post. plz read some of the phrase from Constantine. i like dat phrase coz it inspired me to make my future relationship w/ my husband better ^^.

"I've never been bored with Diane (his wife), and I never will be. We still argue from time to time, but much less than we did years ago, because we know we can't afford to waste any more time. if I had only five minutes to live, i would want all of those minutes to be with her."

"In my ideal world, no couple would ever need to think about divorce. All couples would value their marriage and their spouse so much that they would not do anything to destroy their marriage."

"A divine intervention is needed. Because when one partner breaches the trust of the other by being unfaithful, that's it. Even I can't helpmend it."

"Marriage talks usually focus on nothing but doom and gloom. I want to turn it around this time, and see what couples have been doing correctly to stay in love. One of it is keeping the lines of communication open, without any hostility."

"Too often, the tension that you experience outside, like in your work place or on the road, is brought into the realtionship. You need to differentiate the tension between you and around you. Only then can you realise that you're not really mad at significant other, but you are just taking it out on him or her."

Ketidaktiduran

It already 1.31 am in the morning and I still can’t sleep. I don’t know what to do in the early of this morning. For sure all of my friends already on their bed and have a sweet dream or horror maybe~ hahaha :P I try pm-ing some of my friends who are not idle in my ym’s list. But there are only several replied from them. Of coz la all of them rilly bz entertaining their beloved bf/gf,… sape la aku ni~ (aceyh, sdey la pulak…:P)

Btw, right now I’m trying to do sumthing to make me feel sleepy. However, there are nothing can pull off my eye lid. Juz now, I had ym-ing fyek and told her that I can’t sleep. What she suggested to me is to light off and try to close my eye. After that, slowly you will feel sleepy. Alor fyek, I guess that can’t be applied to me, laa.. I already tried it out and the result: it was failed. Hmm..reading a history book maybe? Eh, I didn’t bring any history book la. Celah mane mau carik! Aiyark..padan muke aku~ If I didn’t overslept this evening, for sure at this moment I don’t need to stay this late and hardly find the way to sleep back. Hmm, I think about 4 hours jugaklaa.. adess!

So, what I want to do now? Kaco org?? yeah, I’m doing it right now. Kaco silvermask..hahaha :P sian die. Baru blk tgok wyg da kene kaco ngan aku.hehehe ~gomenne..gomenne… ^^ my life would be wonderful if I had a bf and I wouldn’t feel this damnly bored. Geez~~ what a desperate statement! Hahaha :D dah2. stop it. I don’t want entering that area. that sensitive area..at least for me :P

Haaa~~ what I’m talking about. Da ngarut neh! Kay,la till then…gotta go and find sumthing that can make my eye and brain shutdown! Daaa~

aku yg bodoh

bertubi-tubi persoalan bermain-main di benak ku tika ini. tika ini aku kesunyian. aku perlukan teman. aku punya teman...tp, bukan teman seperti itu yg aku perlukan. aku perlu teman yg lebih drpd itu. teman yg mampu mengiringi gelak tawaku, esak tangisku, dan senantiasa di samping ku kala aku butuhkan perhatiannya. kadang, aku sendiri tidak mengerti apa yg kurasakan saat ini. kata-kata org tua ku, bila di pikir-pikir kan kembali... ada benar nya. cuma, terkadang aku sendiri bodoh dan lalai dgn dunia imaginasi yg aku cipta sendiri.

konon nya mau yg berupa, yg intelek, yg setaraf.. ahh, pandang saja diri kamu. apa yg kamu ada? ahh... aku semakin bingung. diam aku menyendiri.. memikir kembali setiap baris ayat dr mulut ibuku. " carilah lelaki yg dpt membimbing kite di dunia dan di akhirat. yg tidak tinggal solatnya. yg mengasihi dan menyayangi kita seadanya dan setulus hatinya. dan bukannya carik lelaki yg terima kte mase kte cantik sahaje "

mengapa aku begitu bodoh? aku seringkali begini. tiap kali aku mencapai sesuatu, aku akan melepaskan barang tersebut tanpa menghargai nilai barang t'sebut. saat aku sedari barang itu sudah t'lepas dr tgnku..barulah aku sedar betapa berharga nya barang itu kepada diriku. walaupun ia tidaklah begitu b'harga buat org lain. tp, sekurang2 nya ia dpt membahagiakan diri ku. begitu dungu skali aku.

tak mengapalah.. apa yg sudah usah di kenang lagi. sudah takdir tidak menyebelahi aku buat masa ini. apa yg termampu..hanya doa yg dpt aku lampirkan. semoga berbahagia, abg lut... :)

Cuti Semester yang ...

Serasa, lama sudah jari jemari ku tidak menari-nari di atas papan kekunci ini. bait-bait ayat pun sudah mula kekok bermainkan iramanya. maaf... andai apa yg aku ukirkan kali ini tidak seindah dahulu lagi. Alhamdulillah, akhirnya berjaya juga aku menghabiskan sisa-sisa semester lepas dan diakhiri dengan tugasan "PDP I".

Cuti aku bermula dgn sebuah kisah sedih. kepulanganku kali ini disambut dgn berita tok aku yg sdg sakit tenat. aku sebagai cucu, sedaya upaya menjalankan tanggungjawabku. aku harap, biarlah aku dpt menjaga tok aku dgn baik sebelum ajal menjemputnya. Syukur... doaku t'makbul. walaupun sehari..aku b'syukur. aku sempat memohon maaf drpdnya. aku sempat mengalunkan ayat-ayat suci al-Quran ke telinga nya. saban kali... aku mengajarnya mengucap. sesungguhnya, aku tidak menyesal. walaupun hanya sehari.. tp, kepulangan ku tidak sia-sia. pada ptg sabtu, akhirnya tok aku menghembuskan nafasnya yg t'akhir. Innalillah... Allah lebih menyayangi dia. aku doakan agar rohnya sentiasa dicucuri rahmat dan dibawah lindungan-Nya. al-fatihah.

Selama tiga malam b'turut-turut bacaan tahlil dan kenduri arwah diadakan di rumahku. memandangkan selama ini ayah dan mak yg menjaga tok dan wan, jd kenduri arwah dibuat di rumah aku. nk dikatakan penat tu... memang lah penat. ye,lah... lepas kenduri sudah pasti rumah akan b'selerak. kalo nk diturutkan rasa penat.. mmg malas nk kemas. tp, aku buang rasa tu jejauh. kesian pulak dekat mak nnt. sape lak yg nk kemaskan..~

Cuti kali ini amatlah berlainan dgn cuti-cuti yg sebelum nya. percaya atau tidak.. aku sempat b'kerja sebagai 'cashier' kat kantin kilang Continental. ^^ mula-mula tu, agak cuak dgn situasi baru di tempat kerja. tp, akhirnya b'jaya jugak aku menyesuaikan diri. mcm-mcm ragam org yg aku jumpa mase jd cashier tu. ada yg kedekut la.. dah,la amik lauk byk. melimpah ruah..bile kene byr mahal...merungut pulak. ade pulak yg sempat lg nk menggatal. aiyark... mcm2 ragam. xsume yg byk songeh..ade je yg ok. cume yg xley blah nye..minah-minah indon rupenye gatal2 ek. partner aku ni cashier gak r.. lelaki. bley plak si minah indon ni ngorat budak tu..semata-mata nk makan murah. line aku xmo b'atur. bajet nk ngorat r tu... last2 kene harga mahal.. bising 1 kantin. ahahha :D

keje aku b'mula kul 6 pg, sbb dorg stat makan dr kul 6.30 pg - 8.00 pg. mmg tiap-tiap ari la aku bgon awal. kul 5 pg da bgon. mane nk b'siap lg.. mane nk drive lagi.. sejam jugak,lar~ sampai je kt kantin..tugas pertama yg aku kene buat ialah pastikan air sume da siap bancuh. sudu garpu da disusun. gelas sume da disusun. n kuih-muih cukup. then, t'cangak la aku kt kaunter cashier tu. tp..xde la duduk saje. kalo agak-agak xde org..aku akan kemas2 meja. then, abes je sesi pagi.. rehat jup. then kene potong2 buah-buahan. mula-mula tu, mmg xreti la. ye r..nk kene potong sume nk kasi same saiz.. kalo sekadar potong bodo je..tau r aku. tp, skan ni..aku da cekap beb. hahaha :P antara buah yg dijual.. betik, tembikai, mangga, pisang, honeydew dan mcm lagi. mmg byk. slalunye kalo stat potong buah kul 8.30 pg.. kul 10 baru siap. sbb pas potong tu, nk kene packing lagi. kalo buat sorg2, mau nangis.. then, start kul 11 kene prepare kaunter cashier da. stat kul 11 smpai kul 1.30 kene b'diri kt kaunter tu. mmg lenguh seyh kaki ni.. tp, xkesah lah. da keje mmg cmtu kan. tepat jam 3.30 ptg, aku pon chow~~ hakhakhak. tunggu ape lagi kan... :P

mcm-mcm pengalaman aku dpt mase keje kt situ. w'pun hanya sebulan.. tp, mmg berbaloi. mcm-mcm ragam manusia yg kte bley tgok. s'benanrnye byk lg aku nk tulis. tp, cm da xlrt nk type da ni. xcukup stamina lg ni.. hahaha. bese la.. baru nk warm up. lame seyh..x b'blogging ni. ^^
kay,la..till then~

kak tie tunang

last nite aku kol mak..rindu giler seyh~rase cm omsick. nk balik umah lew~
'btw, mak cite...ari Sabtu ni kak tie nk tunang. 'ouh, siyesly??' finally, tunang gak die ngan gee tu. da jodoh dorg, nk wat cane kan. walopon mendapat tentangan drpd family dorg... tp, akhirnya bersatu jugak. alhamdulillah..~ segala permasalahan antara keluarga masing-masing sudah terurai sudah.. ^^ tp, alaa~~ xley balik tgok kak tie tunang. rugi2.. baru nk happi2.

alamak!!!
u noe wut..skan ni tggal 2 org je lam family mak aku yg still single lagik. aku and sorg cousin aku. die umur 24 dan aku 22 tahun..aiyark~~~ all of my cousins yg len2 sume da kawen..n kitorg adalah 'batch' yg paling tua kot xde bf or tunang or kawen! hahaha:P riso la pulak... kalo la cousin aku (kak ila) tu pon ikut jejak langkah kak tie..abeda r..tggal aku je la yg duk single mingle neh! nk tunang pon xley..balak xde.hahahaha~patutla mak aku duk bising2 kat aku pasal bf2 nih...isk3. ritu mase majlis kawen noni (cousin aku gak) mak sedara aku da sibuk2 tnye..aku ni xkn single2 lagik kot. dgn sejujur mungkin aku jawab ahh..iye,la single~ xde sape nk. [ aceyhhhh...xde sape nk konon. padahal asyik riject org je. kalo dorg tau, mampus aku kene cop sebgai pemilih/cerewet/ seangkatan dgn nye!! :P]

ahh..xmo r cite pasal tu. btw, baru 22 thn kan~ ye2, umur 22 da ley kawen. tp, xde la t'lalu tua sgt kan kalo xkawen. ye x?? :P lek sudey~ walopon tradisi family aku mostly sume kawen awal (range umur 21-25)...tp, nk wat camne kan. da aku xjupe lagik jodoh aku. xkn la suke2 suki je nk trima org kan kalo hati xsuke. nk hidup untuk selamanya kot. bukan nye sehari dua.. kan2? :P
tp... tipu,lah kalo aku ckp aku xterasa pressure langsung. pressure la jugak..tp, aku xnk la sibuk2 desperate mencari bakal suami. xgune pon. sibuk2 carik kalo dpt, xpe la jugak.. ni x..sakit hati je yg dpt. tu, la..padan muka! bile org nak...seribu satu alasan di beri...bile org xnk..tau pulak rasa sakit ati. itu,lah aku. manusia yg sering mengejar yg xsudi..sedangkan yg sudi ternanti-nanti... itu,lah aku... haih~

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