Tuesday, September 29, 2009
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Saturday, September 26, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
atau mungkin aku boleh salahkan hormon? kerna munculnya rase janggal yang jarang melewat diri.. ya, mungkin juge. tapi...
P/s: aku tau, aku tidak perlu lari. tp, jika sunyi hadir mengantikan jasad ini.. harap kalian dpt memahami situasi diri.
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009
humans were driven by two conflicting central desires: the life drive; Eros (survival, propagation, hunger, thirst, and sex) and the death drive; Thanatos (an urge inherent in all living things to return to a state of calm: in other words, an inorganic or dead state).
Think about it...~
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Friday, September 18, 2009
to those on their way back to kampung, please drive safe. Looking forward to hanging out at all your open houses! Muahahahaha.
p/s: Berhati-hati di jalan raya, makan pun berpada2 la yer~ jgn main mercun, ok! kalo nk men tu, ajak ah skali. hik3 :P
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Wednesday, September 16, 2009
also referred to as the red thread of destiny or red thread of fate.
"An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet, regardless of time, place, or circumstance. The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break."
The two people connected by the red thread are said to be destined lovers, regardless of time, place or circumstances. It is said that this magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break. This myth is similar to the Western concept of soulmates or a twin flame. The legend has since also become a popular myth in Japanese culture and other East Asian cultures.
p/s: now i tend to jot down/save every little details that attracted me (i don't know till when it will last :P). u know, like the previous entries. i'd watched 'Mr. Brain' and most of my latest posts are related to it. this time, i watched 'akai ito' and i'd found one interesting myth to share. when i discovered something new or some facts that are interesting to share to, i love to write it. thus later, if i can't memorize or happened to have any disease that can erase memories, at least i have something to read and remember.. :)
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
so, t'paksa lah merajinkan diri sedikit. kuarkan ape yg patut from fridge n masak air dan juga pau roti rumet. haha! jadilah..~ alhamdulillah.. kenyang! ngee~ eh, xsdar lak mase makin menginjak imsak.~ wuu.. next! mata neh semakin segar bugar lak die.. jum2.. prepare tuk solat subuh lak. kalo pas subuh stil xpat pejam mata, cm nk g jogging lah. sure bile masuk office kang jd xbtol. haha! :P xpon, jd cm kat bwh tu...; heee~ :Pp/s: Ape2 pon.. selamat menunaikan ibadah puasa yang hanya tinggal beberapa hari saje lagi. dan marilah same2 kte tingkatkan amal kte pada bulan mulia ini.. :)
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Monday, September 14, 2009
If so, then you know first-hand something about this crazy little thing called “love.” It is sweet and bitter both – a craving we won’t let go of and that won’t release us even if we want it to. That intense romantic focus provides a sense of complete and permanent devotion (which turns out to be inaccurate in fact) – even as it generates immense pain when it is unrequited or otherwise impossible. What creates this wonderful source of pain, this ache of passion – Cupid’s hurts-so-good arrow piercing the heart?
“An Affair Of the Head: They Say Love Is All About Brain Chemistry.”
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It’s all about dopamine. This One Great True Love, this passionate thing we’d burn down the house and blow up the car and drive from here to there just to see the face of the dearest one. You crave it because your brain tells you to. . . .
Dopamine. God’s little neurotransmitter. Better known by its street name, romantic love. Also, norepinephrine. Street name, infatuation.
These chemicals are natural stimulants. You fall in love, a growing amount of research shows, and these chemicals and their cousins start pole-dancing around the neurons of your brain, hopping around the limbic system, setting off craving, obsessive thoughts, focused attention, the desire to commit possibly immoral acts with your beloved, and so on.
Some of these love chemicals in the brain, scientists measure by the picogram, which is a trillionth of a gram. How fragile, this crazy little thing called love.
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Boy, did their brains light up!
There are two shrimp-size things on either side of your brain called the caudate nuclei. This is the gear that operates bodily movements and the body’s reward system: “the mind’s network for general arousal, sensations of pleasure, and the motivation to acquire rewards,” Fisher writes. And when the test subjects looked at their sweeties, these things started singing “Loosen Up My Buttons” with the Pussycat Dolls! lol~
This then, kicked the party over to the tiny ventral tegmental area, a little peapod-size thingy that sends dopamine bopping around your head. This is what scientists call lots of fun.
A separate study by Italian researchers several years ago showed something else. Serotonin, another neurotransmitter in the brain associated with obsession, depression and racing thoughts, was greatly affected — right down to the molecular level — by romance and surging dopamine. People newly in love and people with obsessive-compulsive disorder showed the same lowered levels of the “platelet 5-HT transporter.” In other words, dopamine appears to suppress serotonin, which in turn triggers obsessive-compulsive thought patterns.
You can’t stop thinking about him/her. No wonder! he/she is hiding under a wet flap of cortex! Your brain is officially in love, and it officially is driving you crazy.
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Cupid can’t last, you know. Oxytocin and other chemicals kick in, running around your brain to make you bond with your lover, producing a mellower, more sustainable relationship.
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Dopamine leaves the scene of the affair, now running off into the nucleus accumbens, the insular cortex, the lateral orbitofrontal cortex, research by Fisher and others shows. Jilted lovers’ brains now light up in these areas when they look at pictures of their former flames — this brain matter is associated with taking big risks, addiction, physical pain and obsessive-compulsive disorders. This is why, researchers theorize, people become obsessed with lost love, and are driven, in extreme cases, to stalk, suicide, homicide, rubber tubing.
Regan, the California researcher, notes that such cases are rare, and may have more to do with existing mental issues than simple unrequited love. Still, she says, passion is destined to end . . . . Given this, she wonders if “we do our self a disservice by glorifying passionate love so much.”
“The search for eternal passion is very misguided,” she says. “It’s the search for the perfect high that keeps people discarding relationships right and left . You don’t feel the same way you did; people want to break up, instead of seeing it as normal.”
And so, alas. Even neurologists, to go with Shakespeare’s priest, now tell us passion is true love’s fool’s gold, a flamboyant dead end on the evolutionary chain of primate happiness. The only problem with this insight is that no one pays it any mind. Doomed passion may not make us right, and it may not even make us very happy. It only makes us human. It only makes us who we are.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
- the first type is when human are in a situation where they think " i want to smile..." the brain's frontal cortex, which deals with emotion takes delicate control of the facial muscles to create a natural smile.
- conversely, if you try to force yourself to smile the locomotor center sends the order "SMILE" to control the muscles. but, that doesn't go very well. the smile always ends up looking awkward.
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Badan terkulai, jiwa terabai
aku tahu, bukan Kau yang jauh..
aku yang tidak acuh
aku dekati Kau hanya tika aku butuh
serasa sesak nafasku,
namun ku masih kaku
tak jua ku reguk cawan cinta-Mu
malam yg Kau anugerahkan
kulalui dengan percuma..
jarang aku bersujud
pada dinihari seribu bulan
mungkin nurani tak sanggup menyangganya,
betapa takabburnya dan alpa,
ketika aku minta di mi'rajkan...
padahal jiwaku tak lebih daripada Firaun.
ingin aku temui Engkau,
sebelum ajal menjengah di muka pintu.. "
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Friday, September 11, 2009
i'dhe found several articles regarding fMRI test. basically, brain activity requires energy and a good supply of oxygen-rich blood. The scanner can see the increase in blood flow to the most active parts of the brain because it can detect the difference between hydrogen nuclei in oxygenated blood and those in de-oxygenated blood. In this way the scanner builds-up a 3D map of which parts of the brain are working particularly hard.
fMRI mapping of the brain is used to find out how the brain carries out mental tasks and what parts of the brain are responsible for different brain disorders. you can use MRI scans to see what parts of the brain are active when your subject is doing various different things. Here are examples showing five different stimuli.
PainThe scan shows the regions of the brain that became more active when the subject's hand was heated to a painful level. Pain involves both sensation and emotion so different types of pain result in different areas of the brain being active.
Using fMRI scientists can start to understand how pain works, and how it might be possible to reduce painful experiences.
(MRI scan image highlighting the areas of the brain involved in feeling pain)
LoveIn one fMRI study the brains of people who were in love were scanned while they looked at photographs, some of their friends and some of their loved-ones. When they saw a picture of their loved one specific areas of the brain became active, suggesting that there is a specialised system in the brain relating to romantic love.
(MRI scan images highlighting the areas of the brain involved in feeling love)
Although some of these areas are related to the feeling of joy, some may be a result of different influences, such as the anticipation of a goal being scored. Deciding what the subject should do or see to isolate an emotion is perhaps the hardest part of fMRI studies.
(MRI scan image highlighting the areas of the brain involved when feeling joyful)
SmellThe scan shows the brain areas that are activated by smell. Smell is a complex sense and several different parts of the brain are needed to work out what a smell is, where it's coming from and whether you like it or not.
(MRI scan image highlighting the areas of the brain involved when feeling joyful)
FearThe scans show that when your subject is frightened, a brain structure called the amygdala becomes more active.
The amygdala is responsible for generating a range of negative emotions such as sadness, anger and disgust. It becomes less active when people perform non-emotional tasks, which is why keeping yourself busy when you're sad can make you feel better.
(MRI scan images highlighting the areas of the brain involved when feeling afraid)
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Thursday, September 10, 2009
things that happened or things from a long time ago.. they tend to forget them, don't they?
same like a person u fell in love with..
you forget their face or name, what you talked about, what fun you had together...
if you actually happen to run into that person again,
you just sort of light up, you smile..
you remember the feeling of loving that person.
that happens because,
besides the brain's hippocampus and cerebral cortex there are lots of hidden pockets where memories pool.
the memories of being love by someone, the memories of loving someone, the purest emotions are buried in the deepest part of the brain, the limbic cortex..
they are locked there.
so that they will never ever be forgotten "
- Hippocampus: a major component of the brains of humans and other mammals. It belongs to the limbic system and plays important roles in long-term memory and spatial navigation.
- The limbic system (or Paleomammalian brain) is a set of brain structures including the hippocampus, amygdala, anterior thalamic nuclei, and limbic cortex, which support a variety of functions including emotion, behavior, long-term memory, and olfaction
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ops, sorry for calling u chubby + gemokkk!! eventho u xgemuk pon lg skan. tapi, dun worry. juz wait for a few months, when u got an offer from mrsm. hahaha!! *evil laugh* yeah.. i noe, rite now u tgah b'sedey kan? always thinking bout boarding school and how badly u want to go there. i noe, u're passed ur PMR with flying color and u r d best student in this current school. and everyone hope too much on you. but till now u stil didn't get d offer!! dun worry dear..~ the time will come. juz wait a lil bit. saba ekk :) perhaps early of june u akan dpt dat dat offer letter. ops! t'bagitau pulak.. ok2, nnt da dpt dat letter pure2 xtau ekk. juz wait n see.. dat offer will change ur life afterall, since u r rilly2 hardworking girl. *ehem* ^^
ouh.. i lupe nk ckp. when u start ur new life there (mrsm), tlg jgn terkejut ye. for a year.. u akan membenci lelaki dan u xkn b'cakap dgn lelaki. semua ni gara-gara ur current bf. i mean, ur monkey's love (read: direct translation from 'chenta monyet' lol). he will cheating on u. (shud i called dat guy ur bf? eventho u guys err, i mean 'we' neva had any date with him? juz calling2 and jupe time di kelas je. (dats y die cari yg len kot. lol) but dun worry. slowly u'll change. men are not ur nightmare 'nmore. u'll communicate with them again. yeah, men. because u rilly have a good classmate. :) and u shud b thankful, every sem u will be in d dean's list. congrats in advance for u, babe!! yeah, u r also a good friend and a good listener. u'll have alot of friends in future. juz make sure to b nice to them or later u'll regret dat u won't ave any good memories u'd spent with them. but dun worry, u will have great memories there. i mean in tran-X. Ops, did i mention ur mrsm's name???? lol. soccay.. later u'll know wut i'm writing ere is true..
ahaaa!! i ave one surprise news for u. but before dat, juz take a deep breath and read carefully. rite now, u r d only daughter in ur family rite? and u ave two brothers. along and adik fitri. but, by 2003 ur mom will be pregnant and u'll discovered dat news until she's 6-months preggy. tu pon when u noticed ur mom's belly looks bigger than usual. ok, dun panic. i noe, u'r still enesen and don't shares such thing with mom like i'm rite now. eheee~ :) when u heard d news, u r the most happiest person!!!! at 1st ur hoping d fetus will b a baby girl. on 23rd october 2003.. and it is 3 days left before ur graduation in mrsm, mom delivered a cute baby boy. wah, again.. u'll b d only daughter in ur family. u'r happi with d news but d feeling mixed up. b'coz your parents can't attend ur graduation day. plus.. on dat day, u'll get a dean's list award some more. all of emotion mixed up. but, still.. u shud b thankful to The Almighty. ur bro.. i mean the baby delivered safely. and once again.. don't b surprised~..suddenly dad will turns up at ur graduation day and u cried... alot!! sgt2 terharulah katekan. ehee~ ^^
heyp2~~ u seem excited hearing dis story, huh?? haha.. the most interesting part is here. lalala~ after finishing SPM papers, u had a plan in ur mind to work as a part timer. u noe.. u'll get a job, babe!! guess wut? as a baby sitter to ur lil bro~~.. eheee^^ now, u'll realize the hardship raising a child and u will also have a great time with u lil bro, both of u will become close. i mean rilly close. hee~ hey, u noe.. till now he will listen to wuteva i said. he's such a good boy..^^
*ehem* ur happiness are not end ere. after a month resting from SPM, u'll get an offer from one great IPTS in Malaysia based on ur trial exam. is it great? i noe, u'r still down b'coz of d previous interview didn't went well. u can't go to Rusia to chase for ur dream. being a doctor is a great job rite? with a great income also~ haha. but, hey.. cheer up!! at UTP u'll realized wut u r destined to be. (ou, my... ere i go again. did i mentioned the uni's name? lol) i noe, now u r thinking that engineers are created for men. not women like us. i mean real women. hey stop that typical thinking plz.. u don't know till u try it first. after a month study there, u'll like it until u rejected the matriculation offer which offered ur dream path, being a doctor. and u'll love engineering until u apply JPA scholarship to further study on the same course in Japan. and u manage to go to the interview session but i think ur journey to study at o'c end there. maybe u r destined to be here. chill~~^^ dun easily giv up, k!
i noe, u'll love dis place. dis uni is quite not bad. the facilities are 1st class.. the library.. the halls.. everything is almost perfect!! u'll surrounded by tonnes of wonderful frens and u'll faced a lot of real life problems that will make u who i am rite now.. hey, hey, listen to me. life is a cruel but it is a great teacher, u noe :) u will learn more from it. start from ur frens who are alwiz there for u, ur seniors who are alwiz sharing their experiences, ur mirc's chatters and k5 underground forummers who are alwiz cheer up ur days... it'll be so wonderful!! ^^ eventho till now i'm not rilly succesful in my love life.. don't b afraid, babe. believe me. one day i'll find d rite man. coz' we'd learnt from d lessons ;)
sorry, i noe dis letter is quite long and gives u a lot of surprises..!! enuf till ere, i guess. maybe later u'll received 2nd part of this letter. who's know, rite? eheee~ ^^ i wish u gud luck and do ur best k, babe? do not hesitate and strive for ur goal! gambattene~~ xoxo
p/s: hey, i forgot to tell u. rite now u r not chubby anymore. dun worry bout ur figure. ^^ it will alwiz maintain hawt. hahahaha~lol kidding2 :P
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Tuesday, September 8, 2009
but hey, last week i juz had a blast. again, i hang out and celebrate Merdeka as not-a-single-independent-lonely-woman~.. lol :P i ave them (read: wonderful frens^^) around me. thousand thanx to klise, amal, eena, wani, farah, belle, yap n his gf. u guys make my day!! ^^ siyes, we had a tonne of fun and joys. from medan ikan bakar to old town white coffee, then to mcD and finally @ bistro (ahh.. i forgot the name. nvm~nearest waterfront lumut kot) yeah, 'm happi.. ^^
and a few days ago, i juz received an email from azim. i noe, he worry bout me. *terharu* he wrote; 'this one is dedicated for u and u need to read it'. ou, my.. u r so sweet. but, sorry coz not updating any.. but u noe, azim. my crazy schedule already finished. thus, i hope u'r not worried bout me. i'm ok.. and happi with my life. u shud concentrate on ur other half too..~ ^^ hey, kawen cpt plzz!! haha :D
ok.. ere is the email from him; 'the mayonnaise jar' enjoys~~
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, without saying a word, he picked up a very large and empty
Mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.
He then asked the students if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.
He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.
He then asked the students again if the jar was full.
They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.
The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'
The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire
contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.
'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - Family, children, health, friends, and favorite passions
things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full.
The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.
Take time out with your friends.
There will always be time to clean the house and fix the washing machine.
'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter.
Set your priorities.
The rest is just sand.'
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'.
It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.
what a nice philosophy, kn?^^
p/s: btw, for ur info.. my tight schedules already finished. and i'm back to normal. alwiz going back to my hometown..(almost every week kot!! hihi..best2!!) spending time with my family is the most precious things i eve had.. plus can't wait for along's new born baby!! heheee~~ along said, if his baby is girl, i can giv her a name. yippiieee~~!!! yeah2.. i have one in my mind. *Nur Qalesya* wahhh. xsaba!!
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read from here and suddenly ave an idea to post a new entry relating this drama series. nothing much to say.. rite now, i'm enjoying this jdorama. heee~ why eh?? of coz lah b'coz of this super duper cute + hensem+ macho+ adorable guy; yamapi!! ngeeee~ ^^ *bluch2* sgt2 jatuh chenta, hati tergolek-golek. lol!! :P basically, this drama is all about basketball and yamapi plays a roll as a professional basketball player for Arcs while keiko is a violinist. both of them are trying very hard struggling in their own world and tru this drama, i somehow realized that sooner or later we (read: young adults) will experienced difficulty in finding our confidence and dealing with pride in the working world. fuhh~ sound scary, rite?? soccay2.. that's one of the learning process in our life cycle, thus in future we will appreciate it more. ngee~ ^^
wuteva it is, juz enjoy our life to the fullest and dun forget to enjoy this drama!! hehe~
btw, lelaki-lelaki yg bermain basketballl sgt bergaya, ok~!! ngeee~~ *bluch2 lg*
she's rilly2~~~~~~~~~~~~~ cute!!! cantek!!!~~ i like her lips. sexy2~!! ops, ter'lessy' kejup. :P btw, bout her lifes in this drama... hurm2, start with a normal-boring-single-lady@violinist-who-is-always-search-for happiness. she always mumbling with her best friend, mai bout -when-they-will-meet-their-destined-man and unexpectedly, one sweeeet day she met kamiya who's lost his cellphone on the same bus. and she return the phone to kamiya's coach (ops, sorry.. i don't remember his name.. ) instead of the owner. but anyway, they'd met by fate. slowly, love grows between both of them when kamiya is breaking up with his current gf, natsuki (cast by aibu saki). the plots are rilly awesome and make my heart fluttery. ngee~ by looking at both of them (kamiya & riko) or during the kissing scene between both of them, i'd melted!! lol~ euww, terjiwang sekejup :P
same as riko, i juz want to adapt these story in my life. single? yerp! tends to double? of coz!! lol~ juz wait for d rite person to pop up in front of my face. haha!! kidding2~ no need to hurry, babe~ it will come without u realize it. ne la tau, kot2 tbe2 t'jupe basketball player lak kan. lol!!!~~ :D
below are scenes from episode 05, where at the end of the drama, when heard a weird sound from kamiya's voice, riko felt uneasy and running to the training camp where's kamiya stayed and they bump into each other and........~~
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009
nk dijadikan cerita, selepas abes ngaja tution which was my last day aja haziq.. mmg da plan awal2 nk g ipow amik gamba convo and nk shopping sket2.. i mean, shopping untuk brg2 dapur. tp, disebabkan minggu tu adalah minggu kemerdekaan dan akan cuti selama 3 ari, maka osmet2 suma tade- so, tggal aku sorg2 terkapai2. lol~ btw, xde la terkapai mane pon. cume duk sorg2 agak scary jugak lah. bile bgun sahur sorg2 nk masuk dapur. walopon bulan ramadhan, tp kepala aku ni ske sgt pk pelik2. adeh2~~
so, pergilah aku ke ipow sorg2..ulang skali lagi, SORANG2~ berbekalkan imaginasi yg satu; wanita bekerjaya yg hidup tanpa teman.. aku pon g je la amik gamba n jusco. wahh, best jugak! terasa dah dewasa, babe~~ haha! smbil jejalan tu, aku usha2 jam n sempat la beli jam selai. hihi.. pastu ternampak lak kat bahagian budak2, ade jual baju melayu and ade color yg sedondon ngan theme color raye kali ni. sbb adik2 aku tade lg baju melayu.. so, aku pon dgn murah atinye beli 2 pasang baju raya untuk adik2 aku. cm best lak rase... bile belikan brg2 untuk adik2 dan family ^^
misi mcm berjaya!! hihi ^^ dlm kepala, misi;wanita bekerjaya yg hidup tanpa teman; objektif tercapai! hahaha~~pastu g lak kt bahagian brg2 dapur. beli sket2 ape yg patut untuk masak spaghetti buat bekal berbuka nnt.. wah~ complete rutin hari sabtu aku sebagai wanita bekerjaya yg hidup tanpa teman!!! haha~:D
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